Here am I again…

Here am I again… Maybe a part of me was hoping that today would just be like any other day.

Am I afraid..? Afraid to let these thoughts run through my mind because I have been here before. I feel I am holding back as if I have chained my hands not to spill out the ink on paper, if only doing so would bring the next lines that I am yet to write to life…

I have been avoiding any song, poem, movie, picture even words that could trigger this sincere longing that deeply echoes from within… I could feel my heart skip a beat with anticipation of this dream pacing to materialize into reality…

In my mind I had convinced my subconscious that I will no longer have such dreams, however I am betrayed by my unconscious mind that has captured and displayed this desire yet again in my sleep… where I am not in control…

This dream is no different from the ones I have had before, except that this time around it felt so real… everything about it seemed to be tangible …

We were walking out from the mall holding hands…felt so close to you… Wish I could describe the ooze of chemistry, intimacy that drew us closer and closer. We couldn’t bring ourselves to walk away from each other… You kissed me and I was thrown into a moment of awe and wonder…

The veracity of this dream simmered through my consciousness and I just had to wake up… and now my heart has to catch a breath to make up for the beat that it skipped cause the reality of you exists in my dreams…

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